When I heard the phrase, ‘Back to Basics’ this morning in a AA meeting, it sparked something inside of me. With my recent move to Delaware, I’ve been feeling a little lost and trying to find where I fit in this new place. I realized that I need to get back to the basics.
The meeting where I heard this was the 2nd meeting I’ve got to since COVID. During the pandemic, I fell off my meeting schedule, but managed to stay sober with the support system and routines I had built. While my support system exists, it’s not the same when my people aren’t local. Over the past month, when I’ve not been working I’ve had a lot of idle time. I’ve spent time unpacking, setting up my house, and exploring, but that only takes up so much time. I needed to do something different to maintain my sobriety and my peace.
This feeling came to a head last weekend, when I went to a Barbie party at a local bar, alone. I spent about 15 minutes there before becoming overwhelmed, felt like everyone was staring at me and desperately wanting a drink. I left and did the things I knew to do from the past – everything but go to a meeting. I ended up being fine, but the feeling kept nagging at me and I knew I needed to do something different.
Friday evening, I went down to the beach to get some ice cream after work and decided to spend some time walking around. I stumbled upon this cute store called One Day at A Time. There were tons of recovery themed items in this store and I ended up chatting with the owner, who gave me a meeting list. This felt like it was a sign from the universe – I needed to start going back to meetings.
I went to two meeting this weekend and they both resonated with me. For me to continue to live a peaceful and sober life, I’m going to need to go back to the basics and do the things I know that work.